I have been drifting for a while.
Me – drifting?
- Mr. High Achiever.
- Mr. Most Likely To Succeed.
- Mr. I Can Overcome Anything.
- Mr. Set A Goal and Make It Happen.
- Mr. Make Sure With Wife Is Taken Care Of.
I’m not the man I used to be when my wife was alive. That’s clear. My life and mindset are so different they would be unfathomable to the old me.
I set small goals each day. Things like clean the house, do the laundry, swim laps, workout, walk the dog. Barring extreme circumstances, I accomplish these.
I often have a longer project underway or anticipated like: replace the rotten wood trim, paint the bathrooms or re-lay the pavers in the yard.
These things bring me joy – or at the very least, comfort.
My purpose today is to take care of my dog Wiggles. I want her to have a great life.
For myself, I’m fine with a relatively stress free, drama free, comfortable life. Try to remain healthy and fit and able to take of Wiggles and myself.
As for a higher meaning and purpose, I don’t have one today. Perhaps I never will again.
I’m not sure I care.