May 12, 2020
Been on lockdown for 2 months now. I’ve found a way to cope with the isolation through lots of dog walks, biking and working out.
Unfortunately, I have a problem that requires surgery and then will require at least 4 weeks of no intense exercise (and then likely several months to get back to good condition). I am going to lose my mind during this time period.
But, I have no options. My “magical thinking” was hoping I’d get Covid-19 and die before having surgery but that doesn’t seem likely.
Instead, my condition will only get worse and more difficult to repair, so I’ll be having surgery later this month.
I expect the surgery to go fine. The rehabilitation will probably be fine too. As for my mental health – well, I’ll eventually get over it.
I spent nearly 30 years taking care of my wife through a half dozen surgeries and too many other medical treatments to count. It’s a bitter irony that I’ll be going through my first surgery alone.
That said, I have a problem. I have a solution. And I have a plan. So I’m ripping the bandage off and taking action.
2020 is turning out to be a craptastic year.