Most of my concerns are petty.
- Pool hours
- Interruptions to my daily routine
- Traffic
- Irritating conversations
- Workouts
- Chores
- Dogs
- Weather
- My fitness, health, aches and pains
- Painting
Is this what my life is today?
I used to think my life was sooooo important. I was concerned with being a good husband, a good stepfather, a good worker. I pursued money, achievement, “success” and activity aggressively and single mindedly. Every setback seemed serious and crucial. Every win was simply a step on the path to getting somewhere better.
Now this all makes me laugh.
I think all along, most of my concerns were always petty. I just thought they were important at the time.
My wife used to say to me, “Don’t be so serious,” and then she’d make a frown face at me before she burst into laughter. When that happened, even if I wanted to remain serious I couldn’t. I had to laugh with her, at myself.
Now that she’s gone, I’m finally I’m beginning to understand how she was able to be filled with so much joie de vivre.
I’ll never be filled with it the way she was – but I’m getting closer.