As soon as I was on the other side of my 2nd hernia surgery, I thought “Why did I wait so long?”
The surgery took less than 4 hours total and my hernia is gone.
Of course I know why I delayed this for months :
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- I was loving my extreme fitness and knew my surgery recovery would blow this.
- I was hoping (pretending) it wasn’t really a 2nd hernia.
- I’d rather be dead than have another surgery crossed my mind.
- I wanted to run away.
But now, it is done and my mission is to recover from the surgery and regain my fitness asap.
For the next few days, I will try to enjoy each small step of progress. Within a few days I was back to taking long walks with Wiggles and my pain had dropped to ~ 1 to 2.
While that’s a far cry from 5+ hours of intense exercise daily, it’s a start.
I am no longer obsessively checking to see if I need to push my intestine back in.
I am no longer dreading the future.
So although my body is in recovery mode and it can’t heal fast enough as far as I’m concerned, my mind is clear and worry-free.
The older I get, the better I become at taking action sooner to remove anxiety. I highly recommend this.