I’ve been on an elimination run for a while. Everything is under consideration for being pared back: food, media consumption, reading, conversations, thinking, activities, friendships, relationships, dating, and more.
As a result, my mind is clearer. I feel more centered and confident in my decisions and my place in the world.
For example, yesterday, I discussed my decision not to help my neighbor with a friend.
His response was that perhaps I needed grief therapy, or to spend time “thinking further” on this.
Nope. I don’t. My friend does not have the same clarity of mind/purpose that I do, so he likes to discuss and rehash his thoughts with person after person as he works out his issues.
I, on the other hand, have clear direction and focus. My motivations, my actions and my conscious are clean.
Another example was an experience I had last week with covid, vaccine, gas crisis and “wtf comes next?” fatigue. It lasted a few hours until my thoughts coalesced, as I remembered that I have a narrow path to follow and a plan for all contingencies.
It is liberating to not fear the future nor death. I’m not actively pursuing either, but I am ready for both.
In the meantime, I’ll keep working out, walking the dogs, mowing the lawn, drumming, writing, inhaling the scent of wild spring honeysuckle and savoring my time spent basking in the sunshine.