Spring has been wonderful. Despite injuring my foot and being in constant pain, I am having a great time enjoying the sunshine, the birds, the flowers and my life.
I hardly miss dating at all since I stopped a few weeks ago.
I think about The Music Fan a lot. There’s no doubt I had the hots for her. In addition, she was honest, gave me great dating advice, and pushed me away gently when I was falling too hard and too fast for her.
Sometimes I think if I do casually date, I should reach back out to her. She was fun.
Other times I think about my highschool girlfriend Kerrie, and my longtime wife Ellen. With both of them, it was easy. I never questioned my worth to them, our chemistry, or our love for each other.
So maybe that’s what I will hold out for. And maybe I will never have it again.
I’m not even sure I want a longterm relationship. I met Kerrie when I was 17. I met Ellen when I was 21. I was a child just starting out in life.
I met The Music Fan when I was 53.
I’m not the same person I was way back then.
Being off the dating apps has been a joy. I no longer constantly think about presenting myself, updating my profile, trying to be charming, etc.
Instead, I’m just myself. Take it or leave it.
It’s been a great Spring.