My wife no longer drives her car. She hasn’t driven for months due to the debilitating pain and side effects from her cancer and treatments. Now she’s in her final days at a hospice facility and will never be driving again. So I called my car insurance broker yesterday to have her removed from my…
Are You Afraid Of Dark Skinned People?
If you follow politics and the news, you’ll hear about hordes of immigrants trying to cross the border to steal our jobs. You’ll see videos of young black men being arrested. You’ll read stories about crime in Chicago’s West Side and Miami’s Overton neighborhoods which are full of African Americans, hispanics and immigrants. If you’ve…
Crybaby
I stopped crying when I was 7 years old. My parents divorced for the 2nd time. Then my mother said we were moving far away to Pittsburgh. I bawled my eyes out but nothing changed. After that I decided I would never cry again. Getting tough After my parents divorced I was told, “You’re the man…
Who Will Take Care Of You?
Yesterday the hospice chaplain came to see my wife. I intercepted her at the door because Ellen had made it crystal clear in advance that she wanted nothing to do with a chaplain, priest or rabbi. The chaplain was so kind. She spent 15 minutes listening to my tale of woe about Ellen’s cancer, the…
Just Show Up
When people learned of my wife’s cancer, they all said, “Is there anything I can do?” or “Let me know if there’s some way I can help.” Then most of them disappeared. But not all of them.
Happy F***ing Birthday (Getting hospice for my dying wife)
On my wife’s birthday this year she got a dozen roses, a bunch of cards and a gift certificate for an expensive dinner out. Then she got hospice. Happy F***ing Birthday. But what seemed like a tragic coincidence turned out to be a godsend. The week before her birthday, my wife had suffered day after…
The Right Answer Isn’t Always The Perfect Answer
Last night I failed my wife, once again. When we finally decided to stop all treatment for my wife’s lung cancer and called hospice, I promised that I would take care of her at home so she would spend her remaining days surrounded by her family and pets in the home she loved. I said, “There’s…
Immigration Breakdown
Lately I hear a lot of fear and anger from people who are concerned about immigrants coming to the US. They’ll take our jobs. They’re criminals. They’re freeloaders looking for a handout. They’ll destroy our way of life. My experience with immigrants has been the complete opposite.
Singleness of purpose
When I need to accomplish something difficult, I have to narrow my focus to my single most important goal. Past goals have included: Graduate high school as valedictorian Pay off my debt Relocate Help my wife battle a health issue Start a new job Hit the quarterly sales number Lose weight Here’s how I do…
My wife. My partner. My patient.
I fell hard in love with my wife 29 years ago and never fell out. Over the years, our love deepened. We became a team that could handle anything as long as we had each other. We weathered some storms: Giving up custody of Zack to his father when he was 13 Losing our daughter…